beyond the binaries

2,013 notes

Andrew by Andrea Gibson


When I was a kid I would sometimes
Secretly call myself Andrew
Would tug at the crotch of my pants the way
Only pubescent boys do
Ran around pounding on my bare chest like tarzan
It’s not that I thought I’d grow up to be a man
I just never thought I’d grow up to be a woman either
From what I could tell neither of those categories
Seemed to fit me
But believe me, I knew from a very young age never to say
Hey dad, this adam and eve thing isn’t really working for me
I mean, what about all the people in between?

In the third grade lynette lyons aksed me
Where all of my barbies were
I lied and told her I got in trouble
So my mom took them away
I didn’t dare say: barbie sucks, lynette!
And for that matter tommy, so does gi joe
I wanna grow into something none of us have ever seen before
And gender is just one of the ways
We’re boxed in and labeled before we’re ever able 
To speak who we believe we are
Or who we dream we’ll become
Like drumbeats forever changing their rhythm
I am living today as someone I had not yet become yesterday
And tonight I will borrow only pieces of who I am today
To carry with me to tomorrow
No I’m not gay
No I’m not straight
And I’m sure as hell not bisexual damnit
I am whoever I am when I am it.
Loving whoever you are when the stars shine
And whoever you’ll be when the sun rises
Yes, I like girls
Yes, I like boys
Yes, I like boys who like boys
I like girls who wear toys and girls who don’t 
Girls who don’t call themselves girls
Crew cuts or curls or that really bad hair phase in between

I like steam rising from the body of a one-night stand
I like holding hands for three months before kissing
I like wishing your body was Saturn
My body a thousand rings wrapped around you
You wanted to be a Buddhist nun once
Last night you held my cervix between your fingers
I thanked gods I don’t believe in for your changing

Tell me we’ll be naming our children beautiful and nothing else
Tell Barbie she can go now
Tell gi joe to put his gun down and find a boyfriend
Or a girlfriend
Or a girl/boyfriend
Fuck it, gi joe just needs a friend, y’all
I mean, he’s plastic
And not even the kind of plastic that bends
I want to bend in a thousand directions
Like the sun does
Like love does
Like time stopped
So the hands of the clock could hold each other

And we held each other like I held these words
For too many years on the tip of my tongue
I am my mother’s daughter
I am midnight’s sun
You can find me on the moon
Waxing and waning
My heart full of petals
Every single one begging
Love me, love me, love me
Whoever I am
Whoever I become

(Source: aperioculostuossoles, via fuckyeahandreagibson)

Filed under andrew andrea gibson poem poetry

  1. inspirestrikesback reblogged this from aperioculostuossoles
  2. powerpuffme reblogged this from genderqueer and added:
  3. viridis-saltus reblogged this from genderqueer
  4. supercaptainkuroneko reblogged this from genderqueer
  5. justanotherrec reblogged this from genderqueer
  6. n3ut reblogged this from thesmellofwhitebeardediris and added:
    "Ran around pounding on my bare chest like tarzan It’s not that I thought I’d grow up to be a man I just never thought...
  7. thesmellofwhitebeardediris reblogged this from caveman-love
  8. whodefinesbeauty reblogged this from genderqueer
  9. wolf-liing reblogged this from timhortonsmajesty
  10. leena-learning-to-love-myself reblogged this from genderqueer and added:
    Read it. Read it now. Read it right NOW.
  11. takemetoyourlieder reblogged this from fuckyeahandreagibson
  12. daniellelikesart reblogged this from genderqueer
  13. timhortonsmajesty reblogged this from genderqueer
  14. theycallmeweirdicallthemclones reblogged this from genderqueer
  15. imbeingfollowedactnormal reblogged this from eternal-drifter
  16. eternal-drifter reblogged this from genderqueer
  17. panriot reblogged this from genderqueer
  18. bedazzledneuroses reblogged this from aperioculostuossoles
  19. sentimental-cunt reblogged this from genderqueer