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transpride:

Carteround - Today’s perspective on myself:

You know, I used to be proud to be Trans.
Today I realized something.
How can something be amiable if I’m hurting all the time?
How can I be proud to hate my body?

Today, I wish not that I had been born male — for that would change my memories, my past, and my present — but that I could just be male now.

I don’t want gender dysphoria. I don’t want to look down and see everything I’m not. I want to have a flat chest. I want a penis. I want facial hair. I want to be taller. It’s no longer enough to be perceived as male. There’s a difference in what people see and what I am.

As outspoken and true as this is, I feel the need to comment. I feel like this, very much. Except that I am proud of be trans. And my terrible, painful gender dysphoria does not change that.

I’m not proud of hating my body and being in pain all the time. I’m proud of living a wonderful life despite my body. 

I’m not proud of existing. Existing comes free. I’m proud of surviving despite the cards that have been dealt against me. I’m proud of being myself in spite of a world that tried to make me something that I’m not.

That, for me, is trans pride.

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